Why I hate you but don't envy you

Well for my first blog I'm going to write to my soon to be ex husband. I see a lot of really great blogs about being a single mother and how much these women hate and envy them. And I do hate you. Envy? Maybe only a little
You get to run around the town with your new girlfriend, eat at night restaurants and hang out with your friends freely. Me? I have to make sure the boy is changed and the girl went potty. I have to remember diaper bags, zip coats and put on hats. I have to rush around every morning to get the kids to the bus stop. I can't just go where ever I want whenever I want. We run around the house most mornings trying to find the shoes that aedyn kicked off in his sleep becuasr he won't let me take them off at night. And not only that but most nights he sleeps with his coat on. I csnt run downstairs to do the laundry or run out to my car becuasr I forgot a bag without him following me and crying to go with me. Why? I don't know. Maybe he's afriad I'll leave and never come back. But im not like you.
I only envy thr total freedom you have. My life, though extremely tough, stressful and down right breaking, is wondeful. I get all of the kisses and hugs. I get to scare the monsters and kiss the booboos. I get the "mom watch this", and "look at me"s. I get the "take a picture with me". You dont. I get to watch these kids grow up to be amazing adults. And that'll be all me. You chose to walk away. You said you didn't want to be here for them. So stay away!
The best part of all of this? They won't hear me say how much of a pos you are, they'll learn that all on ther own. And with any luck they'll forget all about you.
You've tried knocking me down by not helping me, but I have 4 months left of school, I work, I take care of the kids. I'm not a single mother. I'm a superhero.


Ps. My posts are all gonna be hateful. ;)